In keeping with October’s message of resetting, I took a couple of days to re-look at what I was writing, where I was going, what my purpose really is and a number of other re’s. As I wasn’t ready to solidify anything into words, it meant taking a couple of days off from blogging.
But never fear! My disappearances never last for long any more, and with the help of my A.R.T. classmates and teacher, I am back on track, even better than before. I have some ideas about putting some plans in motion and have reached the end of not only my ability, but my desire to keep making excuses for neglecting my passion.
There will be some significant changes in the next couple of months with a lot of the energy which, by now, just about everyone is feeling in one way or another, being responsible for those changes.
In my case, it is becoming, “either start pedaling faster or get the hell out of the way!”. I’ve decided that I’d rather pedal faster than miss the golden opportunities presenting themselves to me now.
The good news is, I now know that I can and will have the financial stability I need and the successful writing career that I must have. The details, for now, are not important, because I refuse to have preconceived notions locked into place which would prevent me from grabbing an unexpected opportunity which jumped out in front of me, yelling “pick me! PICK ME!!!” and which is so far beyond my wildest dreams that I would have to jump first and ask questions later.
I’ve eliminated all of the negative “what if’s” and replaced them with positive “why the hell not?”s.
The unlikely has become probable, the impossible, likely, and the utterly ridiculous has become “I think that just might work!”
I will have my one or two days a week to just write…but that is only the beginning. I will have a flexible schedule which allows for meetings with publishers, writers’ workshops, continuing to develop my voice, completion of the book currently in process and at least another two which have been percolating in my brain. There will be magazine articles and maybe even a newspaper column! Why should I limit the possibilities? There are potential opportunities I don’t for now, even realize exist, but they are there for me, maybe when I turn the very next corner!
Too many things point to the fact that my purpose. my path, lie in creative avenues, and I am not going to be the one to tell all of those folks in the Universe that I’m going to ignore that one thing which pulls harder on me every day. It would be like trying to deny gravity!
I have too vivid a picture of starting my day with a cup of fresh coffee on the desk, cats munching happily on their breakfast in the kitchen, and fingers flying across the keyboard as my current story is writing itself almost faster than my fingers can type the words!
I may lose sight of the outside world for days at a time, but know that family and friends will pull me back if I’m gone too long. They will also respect the fact that I need to disconnect and feed my muse on a regular basis, or risk having her fickleness dessert me out of spite. As long as I’m well stocked with coffee, cat food and yogurt, though, all will be well.
There will be times when the hermit I’ve become needs to be dragged out for some fresh air and a few turns around a dance floor, or maybe a trip to Disneyland to just be silly. But even more important will be times when I barely get up from my computer to pee or refill my water glass!
Of course, I’ll have to take those calls and emails from publisher, agent and editor, but that’s the cherry on top of my hot fudge sundae, however difficult it might be to gracefully accept their untimely interruptions.
In the end, I will have made the transition from “writer” to “author” and that, my friends, is what I will be when I grow up! Above all, my oldest friend will finally get that book tour!
My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for all of the people in my life who are so very willing to kick me in the butt when I need it.
2. I am grateful that I know what my passion is, even if I haven’t worked out all of the details for honoring it.
3. I am grateful for having finally gotten my sacral chakra open as it clears the way for all of that suppressed creativity.
4. I am grateful for the encouragement I’m getting from my cats which only LOOKS like they’re telling me to stay at home, sit on the sofa and pay attention to them 24/7.
5. I am grateful for all of the new opportunities that are coming my way, to enable me to pursue my true passion.
Love and light.