Today was one of those days which makes me wonder whether the weird, energetic shifts are all in my head, or if others are feeling them too!
The day started out in a rather lovely way, with Toby snuggling, then moving over so Scooby and Patches could get their turns, while Dylan lay on the pillow and licked my hand. I was up by 7, which is a little on the early side for me, had the cats fed and my coffee by about 7:15, did my usual fiddling and futzing, answering email, checking Facebook and my blog…the usual. I was at the gym by 9:15, took it easy on the cardio because of my knee, and had an absolutely amazing weight workout!
But that’s where things began to wind down, for no explicable reason. I made a smoothie, futzed on the computer some more, then settled in for my daily meditation. Unlike most days when either Munchkin or Snoopy settles on my lap, it was Toby who snuggled next to my leg with my arm around him, purring like crazy. While he was there, I managed a somewhat quiet minded state, though frankly, dance steps and a variety of other things were flitting across my vision. But as soon as he moved, I knew that my meditation was done. His purr was the only thing keeping me focused and not in monkey mind mode.
I never did really manage anything productive today, aside from the gym, and found myself nibbling on veggies and some popcorn I’d gotten at Trader Joe’s.
Finally, it was time to go dancing, and it was amazing, seeing all of the “Cruisers” for the first time since the cruise. I love how the friendships grow from these trips, and we’re all looking forward to next year. Heather’s s’more’s cake was amazing (and why shouldn’t it be?), and the 14 inch round, 2 layer cake was gone in very short order! Friends who normally aren’t there on Thursdays were there to wish Mathom a safe trip, so it was fun to chat with them as well as our usual bunch.
But people started leaving around 8:30, which is really early for all of us. I danced a few more, but found myself standing at one of the rails where there was some air flow, watching the dancing, but feeling rather detached. Though I did a couple of the dances in the line dance set, I realized that I just wasn’t there any more, so I took off my shoes, said goodbye to several of my friends and came home.
I know this doesn’t sound very odd in and of itself, but from one moment to the next, it was as if someone had just pulled my plug, and I have no idea why. There are some interesting interpersonal things going on which I won’t go into as, frankly, it comes too close to drama which I try to avoid, or at least keep out of here. Perhaps some of that energy got in before I remembered to seal my field. The feeling of being drained, in fact, almost sucked dry, remains even as I sit here, surrounded by my cats, rice bag on my knee, and comfy clothes on.
The feeling is so strong that I’m thinking I’ll be going to bed soon, and it’s barely 10:20!
Could something have changed so drastically in less than 30 minutes’ time to leave me not only exhausted and drained, but a little bit sad? I may never know, but one thing I do know is that a good night’s sleep with lots of kitty cuddles will cure whatever ails me!
My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful for my cats when the world seems to be turned on its side, inexplicably.
2. I am grateful for my dance friends who always make me feel warm and welcome.
3. I am grateful for the joy to be found in the people around me.
4. I am grateful that either the tension I’m feeling will be gone by tomorrow, or I’ll understand what caused it.
5. I am grateful for abundance, balance and prosperity in this, my wonderful, amazing life!
Love and light