As I suspected, the hurricane made its appearance, beginning with waking with a headache, and culminating with work craziness done from home between headaches, and dealing with a manager who’d rather blow hard than listen. No matter as I simply inserted a co-worker who was more likely to be heard.
I realize this is a lesson for me, but it’s no less frustrating every time I have to deal with this man and he blows me off like what I say is unimportant. I know it means that I need to pay more attention to giving other people my full attention, but it is still no less insulting, frustrating and annoying to have to go through this time and time again. The worst part is, I was not only right, but the guy made a fool of himself with the customer who pointed out the same error I was trying to communicate to him.
But the task was completed, regardless, and I ended up working about half a day from home, juggling a couple of tasks. And tomorrow is another day!
After losing two pounds this week, I gave in to a craving for pizza, but this time I was smart and ordered a small, ate 3/4 of it and threw the rest away. There will be no leftovers for me to be tempted with over the next couple of days. I also didn’t eat overmuch today aside from the pizza. Just veggies, fruit and some chicken.
I started reading the first book for my class today, felt some really good energy while reading and had a few minutes where I felt the need to send some healing energy to a sick acquaintance. I also started feeling dissatisfied, knowing that I am not yet doing what I truly want to do.
Part of the dissatisfaction lay in the fact that I know I’m on the right path, but that it’s going to take awhile to get to where I need to be, and in the meantime, I have a great deal to learn, and probably even more than I realize at this point in time.
Maybe that’s part of it too. The book talks about 15 years spent learning one thing and 5 years spent learning another and so on, while I’m thinking “I don’t see that I need to be an expert in all of these fields like the author in order to be successful at helping people with the techniques I’ll be learning.”
It reminded me a bit of those who practice western medicine. Oftentimes, they close their eyes to the possibility that other methods are effective too. That anything which does not involve pills or surgery is just a lot of bunk.
In this case, if you don’t have a Phd in Physics and 5 years experience as a massage therapist and years of working for NASA and years of study in anatomy and physiology, you can’t possibly be qualified to recognize what irregularities in the aura represent, much less do anything about them.
Maybe I’m naive, but I believe that some people require a lot of formal training in order to be able to recognize things, and others have an innate sense which just needs to be guided and strengthened. It frustrates me to get a sense of discouragement right out of the gate instead of recognition that there are many levels of sense, knowledge and ability. Nor am I impressed by someone who can set up an office in New York City and be sought after by all manner of high level people. I don’t need or want that in my life.
What I learned today, mixed in with some truly interesting information is that I’m going to have to work a little harder to keep my mind open to the valuable information contained in this text and try to overlook the self-aggrandizement in which the author occasionally engages.
The fact is, I don’t really give a damn about being the best, the brightest or the most sought after. I care about helping people in any way that I can, without concern for fame or fortune in the process.
Maybe someone who has engaged in the practice long enough to write a book about it feels they have the right to toot their own horn, and maybe they’re right. But to come out and state that their qualifications and degrees are the only way to go is just a little more than I need or care about. I’m reading what they wrote for the knowledge I might impart, not the glory they’ve achieved.
I guess what I learned to day is that I have to completely depersonalize what I’m reading, and just take the words and their meaning at face value. Or maybe it was just the hurricane-ish day, the discomfort I was feeling and perhaps a bit of oversensitivity.
The best part of it all is that tomorrow is another day, the sun will come up and today’s challenges will be behind me!
My gratitudes tonight are:
1. I am grateful that the aggravations of today can be relegated to history and be left behind me when I close my eyes to sleep.
2. I am grateful to have my universe expanded and to be learning more about things I’ve experienced most of my life.
3. I am grateful that my headaches finally abated this afternoon.
4. I am grateful that the tasks requiring completion were, in spite of the challenges, completed as required.
5. I am grateful that it’s time to climb into bed, close my eyes, and snuggle with a kitty or two who demands nothing more of me than my warm body to cuddle with.
Love and light.