As I sit here gazing at my computer screen, noting that, once again, the clock reads 11:11, I can’t help wondering if there really is something to what people say about seeing lots of 1’s. I’ve heard new beginnings, but I’ve also heard that it’s an indication you’re on the right track. Either way, as far as I’m concerned, it’s good news!
For the last few months, those who have been following my babbles have seen that my life has become one, great, big evolution. In fact, I daresay I could be the next life evolution poster child, were such thing even in existence. I see change and I say “bring it on! I love roller coasters!” Well, maybe not quite that broadly. I don’t want to give the Universe too many invitations to give me its infamous headslaps, now, do I?
But I am venturing out of my safe, little nest. I am meeting new people, trying new things, taking gigantic leaps of faith, and trusting that, no matter what it looks like at any particular moment, things will work out splendidly, if I just keep the faith and do my best to avoid negative thinking or talking.
Regrettably, tonight was not one of my better efforts. I spent a few minutes complaining and I am disappointed in myself, especially since it wasn’t even over anything earth shakingly important! I berated myself on the drive home, especially since I subjected others to my bout of whining! This was clearly a not-so-subtle reminder that I still have a lot of work to do!
But what would life be without a lesson or two thrown in for our listening pleasure? We need to know that we’re making progress, but have a long way to go before we achieve Divinity. And that’s perfectly all right! If we went our merry way, never realizing that we had room for improvement, that would be another story. But recognizing that we aren’t perfect, and seeing where we might make some improvement, however small, is tremendous! If we never recognized that something was broken, we wouldn’t direct our efforts to fix it. However, if we see our own flaws, and look at them objectively, we can change, not only ourselves, but a small piece of the world as well!
As I see it, flaws are part of the Human Experience. We use those flaws to set our lessons and move ourselves along the evolutionary continuum towards connecting with our Divine Selves! OK, so mine is probably several galaxies to the left right now, but knowing she’s there is enough to make me strive to be better. Right now, I need to remember to replace complaints with gratitude. I think that’s enough to remember for right now!
And on that note, my gratitudes for tonight are:
1. I am grateful for friends who love me even when I’m not as much fun to be around.
2. I am grateful for lightheartedness and joy derived from even the smallest things.
3. I am grateful that I am not the kind of person who tries too hard to get someone to like me any more.
4. I am grateful that I have learned to love myself unconditionally, regardless of my flaws, or maybe because of them, because they make me who I am, and give me opportunities to be better.
5. I am grateful for the ability to seal my field and block negative energy. I’m learning that in so doing, it dies for lack of feeding.
Love and light.